It's Never Easy

I went in for blood work this morning, I waited over an hour for what should have been a two minute appointment, all for the news I/we'd been expecting - negative. It's never easy to hear even when you know it's coming. I feel so awful for my IPs and I worry that this failed attempt might have taken away the confidence surrogacy had given my IM - this was supposed to be their answer. Of course we'd all hoped it would take one try and they'd never have to hear those disappointing results ever again.

Instructions are to stop all meds, I should have a period within the week and then we wait till my next cycle to begin the process all over again - my guess would be moving ahead early to mid June for a July retrieval and transfer. I assured K I'm here and ready for whatever is to come. Thank you all for your encouragement and concern.

Since it may be awhile before there is another update I'll leave you with this surrogacy playlist I put together and shared with IM earlier this year. At first I was going to post just a song - but really all of them are fitting for this point in the journey. Much love to my IPs.

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